Yesterday I cleaned a dirty window. This morning as I sit here and see the sun shining through that window, I’m horrified. What I thought was clean is really a mess of smears going every which way! Gotta work on that some more today. Apparently I’ll only know if it’s really clean is when I look at it again tomorrow morning in the sun’s pure light.
If the truth be told, I think I’m pretty good most of the time. But when I read or see the story of Martin Luther, for example, who was tortured by his many sins (in a monastery!), I wonder what I’m missing. Recently I read the book, “Respectable Sins” by Jerry Bridges. It’s like the sun shining through a window pane to reveal those usually-overlooked (by me!) flaws which mar the beauty God intended to be seen in me. God, please get out your Windex again. I want your Son-shine to beam through with no distracting smears in the way.
Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life. Psalm 139:23-24 NLT